We / Mi

We have a saying in my country ‘You are alike the people you hang out with’. It’s more than just a saying. You absorb the emotions, behavior, perspective of other people. My biggest problem at the moment is that I don’t have enough of people with who I really wanna hang out with. And that the situation I’m in changes me for the worse. Me. I am changing. It can serve as an interesting digression, a friend of mine was talking about a girl he wants to end up with… And he says, she’s not young, she’s fourth grade high school. And I just notice how I took his perspective for a moment, while he was saying I felt totally like he feels about it. While she’s actually too young for me. Literally, while we talk to other people, we’re not just intellectually exchanging information, we’re subconsciously absorbing their entire perspective, everything from the personality of another person. I noticed a similar thing when I returned home from the city where I studied. It was about Trump, the media were yelling about. I had a critical attitude towards Trump, he’s a neo fascist phenomenon which is worth nothing but condemning. And when I came home, I noticed few times while I was watching TV, how I perceived him totally differently, I felt like: Wow, you’re so cool. It just run through my mind, that feeling. And I noticed, that’s what my family at home feels about him. It also happened to me few times that I literally had a thought while watching the news, I noticed it was my fathers thought, no way it was mine. When a person becomes aware of this, it can be a bit… disturbing. We can ask ourselves, who are we? What is ‘WE’? As much as we are physically separate beings, psychological we’re just a peace in the sea of waves, with the ability to perceive ourselves as separate. This perspective doesn’t leave us without control, on the contrary, by being aware of these emotions and facts we gain real control cause we can be aware of what is authentically ours and what isn’t, and we can chose which imprints to feed in ourselves and which to ignore. In fact, without this perspective we live in an illusion of control, in an illusion of total separateness and individualism.

I wrote  a lot in my previous blogs about my experiences of direct telepathy. I will mention just some of them. I have a friend which tried Ayahuasca recently and he said that all participants in the ceremony telepathically bonded with each other and formed an energetic circle, that they felt each other completely. For example, a guy next to him had a problem with his sinuses, and my friend, when he would feel connected to that guy, would start feeling his nose full and heavy of liquid and he would barely breathe. I also had some exciting experiences with telepathy myself. My first big experience was spontaneous, me and few of my friends got stoned and did bonding visualisations… In a way it had similar effect, for example, while we were walking, I had a constant feeling I have to turn left and take a pee, which was weird – cause I didn’t feel like peeing! And then this friend of mine said, I have to pee since we started walking, and turned left and took a pee. After he took a pee my feeling was gone. Also we all felt each other totally, we bonded in an energetic circle, when we came to my house we found my sister awake and we were unable to communicate with her normally. I got paranoid about ti, though she’ll notice we’re stoned, and all of a sudden some kind of a candescence took us. Then one friend said: What is this, I feel like somebody is getting crazy. Also, I experienced telepathy willingly with one blogger I only knew from the internet. We made a deal to try communicating telepathicaly that in midnight that day, and when an hour came, I tried to open myself and visualise and feel his energy. Visualisations were strong, and latter when we told each other what we saw and felt, our stories matched… We really communicated telepathically. It was in the form of visualising, or to say, seeing two of us running on a meadow, swim in a lake, being shamans in the woods and alike, all with a really intense charge, the feeling, all was totally real. After that experience I spent three days feeling high, and that day after the experience my body was really hot, I guess because a lot of energy went through me. A feeling after that experience was in a was similar to the feeling after sex.

I know a lots of similar synchronicity experiences and similar situations. All of this is really interesting to talk about and to question ourselves, what are we exactly. In the principle, it doesn’t matter as long as we feel good, right? So this is quite interesting. It is also interesting how the quantum physics found that everything is in fact consisted out of empty space… And then the Buddhism claims that the nature of all things is a void, and that the appearing world is illusional. Interesting links. Also, I know one person whose mother had a clinical death experience. She formed a group of people to meditate thinking about her mom and meditating on purple color, cause purple is the color of getting cured. After her mother awoke from coma, she told how, while she was in a coma, she saw a bunch of black birds and blackness in general, and a little bit of purple color. As the time passed, the blackness and the birds started withdrawing and the space became more and more purple, until on the end everything became purple. There is also an interesting exercise for telepathy if anyone is interested, you pull a card and put it on a table without looking at it. And then you try to feel which card is it, or for a start, which color or sign is it, and so. That’s the practice. I also had a situation on my exam, when professor started giving me the questions, I was thinking on few questions I knew really well and focused on them (but not intentionally, it was just spontaneous). Nevertheless, two out of three questions he gave me were the ones I was thinking about. Also, yesterday while I was playing cards with my niece few times, just for fun, I tried to telepathically influence her to play a certain cards, and it happened worked. In this case we’re actually talking about manipulation, but you have a trick there, you attract the thing you’re focused on, if your fear prevails, you will attract the thing you’re afraid of and it can happen. It is interesting to think about this and think what are we actually, how we influence our surrounding and how it influences us.

S kim si takav si je više od samo fraze. Upijaš emocije, ponašanje, perspektivu. Moj najveći problem trenutno je možda što oko sebe neman dovoljno ljudi s kojima mi se stvarno druži. I što me cila situacija minja na gore. Mene. Ja se minjan. Ali dobro, nisan planira u ovom postu kukat. 😀 Prosto ko zanimljiva primjedba, pričan sa prijateljen mi o jednoj trebi koju on oće barit… I reče on, nije mlada, 4. srednje. I kako to reče meni se učini ono, ma ja, 4 srednje, dobro je to, nije mlada. I samo primjetin kako san zapravo upija njegovu perspektivu. Jer meni je premlada. Bukvalno u komunikaciji, ne samo što intelektualno razminjivamo informacije, nego podsvjesno upijamo komplet perspektivu, sve iz ličnosti od druge osobe. Već san jednon sličnu stvar primjetija kad san tek se vratija kući iz Sa sad ima 8 miseci. Ticalo se Trumpa o kojem su brujali mediji. Prema Trumpu san ima izrazito kritički stav, jedna neofašistička pojava koja je nizašta nego za osudu. I kad san doša kući, samo san par puta primjetija kad gledan tv sa svojima i kad se pojavi nešto o Trumpu, kako doživin ga totalno drukčije, na fazon kao: vidi njega, baš je on zabavan, jest lud. I par puta doživin i nešto kao: svaka mu čast. Prosto mi prođe kroz glavu. I skontan da je to zapravo ono što moji misle o njemu. Tako san još par puta kad bi gleda vijesti bukvalno pomislija misao i naknadno skonta da je to misao mog ćaće, da nema šanse da je moja. Kad čovik osvjesti ovo u jednu ruku to more bit malo, disturbing… Jer se zapitaš, šta san ja? Šta je JA? Koliko god da smo fizički odvojeno biće, psihički smo prosto jedan komad u moru valova, sa mogućnosti da sebe percepiramo kao odvojene, i budemo odvojeni. Ova perspektiva nas ne ostavlja bez kontrole, naprotiv, time što san ja svjestan ovih emocija tek i dobivan stvarnu kontrolu, jer mogu skontat šta je zapravo moje autentično a šta je tuđi uticaj koji mi se ne sviđa, i mogu probirat uticaje od drugih ljudi koje ću u sebi podržavat i hranit i one koje neću. Zapravo bez ove perspektive živimo u iluziji kontrole, iluziji apsolutnog individualizma, i iluziji odvojenosti.

Također, puno san pisa do sad na blogovima o iskustvima direktne telepatije. Napomeniću sad samo neke. Prijatelj mi ima nekoliko je proba Ayahuascu, i reče da su se prilikom ceremonije svi potpuno telepatski povezali u energetski krug, da su svi osjećali jedno drugo potpuno. Npr lik do njega je ima problem sa sinusima, i on je, kad bi se osjetija povezan sa njin, osjeća kako mu je nos pun slina i kako jedva diše. Ja san, prilikon svojih iskustava sa telepatijon ima dosta uzbudljive doživljaje. Prvi put je bilo spontano, napušija san se sa par prijatelja i radili smo vizualizacije povezivanja… Na neki način je imalo sličan efekat, jer npr, cilo vrime san ima osjećaj moran skrenit livo i pišat. A nije mi se pišalo. I ovaj jedan prijatelj mi reče, piša mi se cilo vrime, i skrene livo i popiša se. Nakon toga uopće više nisan ima taj osjećaj. Također smo se potpuno osjećali, povezali baš u krug energije, kad smo došli u mene kući takvi, zatekli sestru budnu u kući, nismo s njon uopće mogli normalno komunicirat. Mene uvatila paranoja oko toga da će nas provalit da smo napušeni, i samo odjednon u svima proradilo neko usijanje… Jedan prijatelj mi reče: Šta je ovo, nekoga od nas ko da jama neko ludilo. Također, telepatiju san iskusija i ciljano, s jednin baš blogeron koji više ne piše. Dogovorili smo se telepatski povezat taj dan u ponoć, i ima san vizualizacije, sa ciljen da se otvorin i maksimalno osjetin njegovu energiju. Vizualizacije su bile jake, i poslje kad smo si prepričavali poklapale su se moje i njegove… Stvarno smo telepatski komunicirali. To je bilo u obliku da vizualiziran, to jeste, vidin nas dvojicu di trčimo po livadi, plivamo na jezeru, da smo šamani u šumi i slično, sve sa jako intenzivnin nabojen, osjećajon, sve je bilo potpuno stvarno. Poslje tog iskustva san tri dana bija totalno high, a taj dan san se opipa i bija san sav vruć od usijanja. Vjerovatno jer je puno energije prošlo kroza me. Također, osjećaj je na neki način bija sličan sexu.

Znan još puno iskustava sinkroniciteta, i sličnih situacija. Sve ovo je itekako zanimljivo za proučavat i za zapitat se, šta smo mi zapravo. U principu, šta smo nije ni bitno ako nam je dobro, je li tako? Tako da je ovo itekako zanimljivo. Još šta mi je zanimljivo, je to da je kvantna fizika dokazala da je sve zapravo sačinjeno od praznog prostora… A budizam tvrdi da su sve stvari sačinjene od praznine, i da je pojavni svijet iluzoran. Zanimljive poveznice. Također, znan za situacije jedne osobe kojoj je mama bila u kliničkoj smrti. I ona je oformila grupu ljudi koja je meditirala misleć na ljubičastu boju, jer ljubačasta je boja ozdravljenja. Nakon što joj se mama probudila, ispričala je kako je imala iskustvo di je vidila crninu punu crnih ptica sa malo ljubičaste boje. I kako je vrime išlo, crna boja se povlačila, a ljubičaste je bilo sve više, dok sve nije postalo ljubičasto. Zanimljivo je, a ima vježba za telepatiju ako nekoga zanima. Izvučeš kartu al da ne vidiš koja je. I pokušavaš pogodit koja je, ali ne moraš odma točno kartu, moreš npr pogađat je li pik il tref i tako. Tako se more vježbat. Jednon san ima situacija na ispitu, kad mi je profesor dava pitnja, bija san sav u želji da bude jedno konkretno pitanje koje znan. I od tri pitanja, dva puta me je pita točno ono koje san tija. Također, jučer dok san igra karata sa nećakinjon san par puta ciljano mislima utica prema njon da odigra nešto određeno, i desilo se da odigra. To je već manipulacija, al tu je zajebano, jer tu kako god more bit ono što želiš jer to privlačiš, ako ti privagne i ako si sav u strahu u mislima: joj nemoj da bude to i to, privlačiš baš to da bude. Zanimljivo, za zapitat se ko smo i šta smo, i kako oblikujemo svoju stvarnost svojin mislima, a i kako naše okruženje oblikuje nas.

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7 thoughts on “We / Mi

  1. Zanimljivo.
    I ja imam mnogo iskustva sa sličnim stvarima. Mada, ne volim da namećem svoju viziju svetu (manipulišem, jel, to je ono što se drugačije naziva magija a svuda je oko nas ). Draže mi je da pokušam da se uzdržim i od straha i želje i vidim koje puteve tada neke veće sile od mene iscrtavaju pred mojim stopalima. 🙂

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    1. Da, svćan… Meni možda taj magijski princip više odgovara, mada me zadnje vrime život uči više da se prepustin nego da si sam kreiran stvarnost. Al opet kreiran je i ako se pripustin, samo što je tako meni lakše. 🙂 Fino si to opisala, poetično. 🙂 Ja volin govorit, pisat, prenosit informacije, to mi je strast, pa tako volin pisat i o ovin stvarima.

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  2. Ne znam da li treba onda mijenjati tu okolinu ukoliko ti se ne sviđa to što utiče na tvoje mišljenje, ili mijenjati sebe. Ako ti smeta što prelako odustaješ od svojih stavova. Bila sam u nekoliko, da ne kažem stalno, takvih situacija i nesvejsno ti stvarno kupiš njihove izraze, mišljenja, pa i navike, ali do neke granice. Onda se ta granica dosegne i ti donosiš odlukue – ili po svom do tada uobičajenom mišljenju ili se mijenjaš. Ili odbijaš takva druženja koja ne prihvataju tvoj način razmišljanja i tražiš nova, ili se samo povinuješ, ne praviš od toga takvu dramu. Ja sam uradila i radim ovo prvo.

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